SO- I know its been almost two months since I posted that I was back but you know my life. @_@
I have my scanner hooked up to my computer- I have Photoshop- I'm getting a tablet for my birthday- and I'm drawing IZ again.
Invader Zim styled IZ no less- I'm pretty fucking happy I'm not going to lie.
I will do my best to log onto Skype frequently- but please, please
understand that I still have a lot going on outside of dA.
You guys are so fucking important to me but sometimes you have to go handle things that need handling- and that's exactly why I was gone for... what, three years? Shit happens.
Work is insanely busy- you can imagine the skin cancer industry is booming in Florida. Snowbirds just got here from up north, so I'm pulling a lot of late nights at work and some twelve hour shifts. Once work is done, I go and see my love
and spend a few hours with him; if I'm not exhausted I come home and work out because you all know of my other dA page
( HIGHLY NSFW and don't view if you don't want to see me nude. ) and that takes maintaining the body. x-x I am not saying whatsoever that you guys are at the bottom of my priority list- I just will never be what I used to... at least not until I've moved into the house when my tax return comes... then maybe, just maybe... things will be back to the way they used to be and I'll be here nightly.
Just understand how hard it is to have a busy ass life outside of here- and then have another life here you have to maintain. I feel like such a horrible person when I have to up and go for days, weeks, and months at times... this is why I'm so reluctant to snuggle back in with some old friends because I just.... don't want to leave them hanging like I did when I started as a bartender and was working night shifts. ._. I have great, great guilt still about all those people who were... really fucking close to me and then one day I was just gone. You have no idea how much pain I feel over this- every single day of my life. Some of the best friends I've ever had were here online- and I can't say I've met many people in the real world who come anywhere CLOSE to how great you all are. I feel like I abandoned everyone even though that wasn't the case, things just got tough.
Now even though things are truly great- things could get more strenuous in the future. College is a big thought in my head right now and I'm thinking about pursuing my major seriously now since my work will pay for a full ride- that's a big deal and I'm not going to let it slip through my fingers.
All this bullshit aside- I am plotting a comic, and have been for the past two months. It is going to be strictly IZ style- this is easier for me because frankly IZ style is easier to do than full blown realistic/semi-realistic bodies. I have a whole slew of new characters; and in the comic universe, pretty much every character you ARE familiar with ( Coco, Aissa, Korr, etc. ) are all dead. Sorry.
It will make sense when the comic starts- but I'm conflicted because I don't know if I should be uploading the drabbles/story I'm writing to go with it or the comic itself.
I have my scanner sitting here; I'm about to take my meds and start drawing.
I love you guys; all of you. Without you I don't think I ever would have gotten this far with my life and frankly I'm glad I decided against deleting this account.
Don't be afraid to note me, I don't bite. I swear to god my shitty attitude is gone; I just cuss like a sailor. Heh.
Much love and looking forward to posting these comics.
Who knows, when shit really stables out I might just start roleplaying again. Who knows.